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Reviewer: Adona Anonymous [Report This]
Date: 01/16/2013 - 07:03 am Title: Chapter One

Please, please write a sequel! There is SO much more to tell. I want to see J2s relationship grow, their first time, maybe moving in together -- and we KNOW that Mama Ella is going to fight back!

Reviewer: Adona Anonymous [Report This]
Date: 04/10/2012 - 04:29 pm Title: Chapter One

Please, please, please write more in this verse! Wonderful and compelling -- and so much more to tell.

Author's Response: oh, gosh, you've left a comment at a cool time. I don't know what spinkink_meme fill I was writing, but I got the *itch* to actually do a follow-up sequel as we go about exploring Jensen's sexuality as he figures out different ways to be intimate with Jared and it doesn't involve penetration sex just yet - just a bit of the *slow burn* I like to use in some of my fics...and oh, hells yes, so much, much more to tell for this version of Jensen. I wanna get into his mind-set again, since I, myself, was a late bloomer to sex (well, losing my virginity)...much love...:O)

Reviewer: Cappy712 Signed [Report This]
Date: 01/30/2012 - 07:41 pm Title: Chapter One

Thank you. I have a as Dean would call it, an OCD thing about records and keeping track of things; so I created an excel spread sheet.

info address synopisis extra synopsis date read type

What I've done is when I finished a story, or a chapter is I copy the URL and put that in the address part. Now granted I have the file so that it's kind of small 7 pt and then I don't keep it at full viewing so that I can fit it all there. But, like I said it's an OCD thing that I have and this way - keeping records if someone is looking for a fic and I think I might have read it I can do a search through the spreadsheet to find it.

My experience with fan fiction and with Supernatural is funny - I didn't even hear about the show until it was 1/2 into season 5 and when I did it was because of TNT. I was watching (getting hooked) on it and what happened was during that February while the end of season 2 was on TNT we had a massive snow storm on the East Coast and we lost power for 5 days. When it came back TNT was now showing season 3 and I could not figure out what the heck they were talking about Dean's deal, I was like what Deal? I even kept going to TNT trying to watch the eps but they never came on so I broke down and found a great deal and ordered season 1-4 from Amazon (70.00) which I thought was a great deal for all 4 seasons. I waited and waited and was getting aggravated because I could not figure out what the heck. Then after ordering the DVD's I found a paid for download site and I signed up and was able to download all 5 seasons (6 and some of 7 now) from the site. There was 3 eps in season 3 that would not download or work no matter what (I finally figured out a way after I got the DVD's to copy them, so I have them on my harddrive when I go on vacation and I don't leave the boys behind) Yeah I know I'm sick.

Anyway that's when I found out and cried my eyes out with the last 3 eps of season 2. OMG my eyes were so sore from those three eps. My family thought I lost it LOL. Then because of all the searching I finally signed up to facebook (found so many great people on there) esp SPN fans.

My first Fan Fic was from Hells High Acre - Damned Demented Demons - a crossover of Harry Potter and SPN. I was come on Dean hates witches how in the world can you cross those two over and I started reading. I loved it and then she had letters from Bobby to Herimone (sp) and then Vile Violent Vacations. A few follow ups as well. I will tell you what an exposure to fan fiction (these were very long but wonderful stories). Then because of LJ I found others and others and kept going.

I'm grateful that when my computer crashed I only lost a few things, what really sucked was I thought I had backed up the files that I lost but the back up didn't take (so it was going before it went).

For your Amazon downloads, they should still be avilable in the archive. Mine was and if you have a Kindle or want the Kindle for PC I highly recommend that as well. I have a tablet now a Web OS that the Kindle works on and found this wonderful site free books to download everyday. I have more books now on my computer / tablet then I am able to read.

I hope you don't mind my communicating with you. Thank you again.

Author's Response:, I don't mind talking to you. If you wanna take this to emails, if you wanna chat in further discussions where we have more space to expand on our thoughts, here are some email addies I use...

Main : draven2523@msn.con Sub-Main : 2nd Main :

xdarlingnickyx username is actually my sock puppet account so I can feel freer to write my kinkier fan-fics. I didn't want to scare the living daylights out of my normal flisties on my Livejournal, which is under the sonnygrl11 username [ *Note* : I am also under here, Sinful Desire, under the penname so look for "Sonny", in the "s" section of the Authors listings ; I have a few J2 and mostly Sam/Dean & Dean/Sam pairings ]


awww...I actually do understand the OCD-ness of wanting to be organized. It's like me, in my real life, my bedroom's kind of messy, my "office spaces" [ where my desktop computers are ] are all kind of a mess, but when it comes to actual work I am so organized I make most people sick.

I swear your "plan of attack" id damn near admirable. I wish I had started to do that when I received my iPad [ for my birthday last year ] because once I was able to walk away from the computer, not attached by wires and a massive hard drive...christ-on-a-cracker, did I devour so much fan-fiction in the SPN/J2/CW-RPS communities. I turned my iPad into a very expensive e-reader...

I actually came into Supernatural during a terrible, awful "writer's block" situation from my main fandom, the one I told you I also write for that smaller and more underground [ not prominent ; and not the main OTP of the fandom ]. What I tend to do to boost my creativity to get out of the funk my *muse* is in is just drown myself in movies and tv shows I haven't yet watched. I had been hearing rumors about these two brothers on this Supernatural show and then how the subtext of homosexuality was just abundant -- eh, I got curious so right around the time of Hellatus during the 2nd Season, right after "Heart" had aired...I went back and streamed on-line the first season all the way up to "Heart" in those few weeks until the show picked back up airing Live.

oh, man...I swear to you..."All Hell Breaks Loose" is -- hands down -- probably my favorite two episodes of all time in SPN season. Probably because, gah...if the show hadn't been picked up for a 3rd season...what a beauty of a two-parter series finale Eric Kripke had conjured up. I felt it was The Winchester Boys coming around full circle, back to their roots. So I know what you mean about the last 3 eppies of 2nd season just tearing at your heart out.

Once the show's finale arrived, to invite 3rd season the next tv seasons in September...I didn't read fan-fic, but I did join some of the journals and sites of the fandom, devouring everything I could about Sam and Dean, and peripherally J2 [ Jared & Jensen ]. I tried my hand at writing 3 fics ideas out, on my own, and just posted them to my Livejournal, nowhere else. Those 3 fic still remain WIPs tot his day. I will finish them, hopefully, and maybe turn one or two into a Wincest-y feel...all are basically Gen, with the brother relationship somewhere in there.

In 2009, I had some spare time and went diving right into SPN/J2 fan-fics and pretty much just sat around for the later part of the Summer and ate up all the good, enriching Big Bangs of that year. In 2010, I got involved in the Big Bangs of that January by taking on some Beta-work, about 4-5 fan-fics...I LOVED IT. Then I did it again in 2011. Still haven't gotten the balls to sign-up for Big Bang as a writer or an artists, but I do love the atmosphere of it all.

East Coast? I'm on the East Coast. Delaware, to be exact.

I used to belong to Facebook, but not anymore. Someone hacked my page and started emailing some rather sketchy mailers to my "friends". And those friends weren't happy with me and swore up-and-down that I had sent them emails. Frankly, thought I did join Facebook, I was never on there. I don't miss it. I'm not into some of the media Facebook, Twitter or Tumblr

wow...not really into the Harry Potter fandom but I have so many people I know who are, so i do know the gists of Potterdom...I'll have to check out those fan-fics you mentioned. I looooove long and wonderful you can see with one of my fics that's 200,000+words long. I promise you I didn't plan it that way

I keep meaning to back-up my computer hard drive somewhere. I actually work through the Linux OS called Ubuntu...but my other computer does have Windows XP. I do, though, swear to God...Linux/Ubuntu has saved me from having another terrible hard drive crash. My computer died within a bad mishap with Microsoft Windows and a faulty hard drive. I had bought my main desktop -- an HP Touchsmart -- through a computer wholesale dealer at a discounted price, so it had already had its hard drive replaced once before I received it. I'm a very DIY person...kind of hands-on in learning my own computer I reinstalled my own hard drive then changed over to Linux/Ubuntu, which is right up my ally and sooooo much better than Windows OS because not all that "shit" is running on start-up and it's not trying to underhanded try to update things when you're not around. You, the computer user, are in control. I love, still love it after two years...of changing over.

hmmm...I don't know where you're able to re-download music on Amazon. Would love to find out how, because I want some of those CDs back on my hard drive. I've been in my account several times, going through the sections and there are DOWNLOAD buttons to press, but then the screen tells me..."already downloaded" and then there's nothing more to press or access to re-download.

iPad has a KINDLE App I've had for a while -- never used it yet. Most of my reading has been in fan-fiction. I'll have to check out that website link you gave me...

much love...:O)

Reviewer: Cappy712 Signed [Report This]
Date: 01/30/2012 - 04:45 pm Title: Chapter One

Thank you, yeah well I originally started reading Fan Fiction last January and I was keeping a log but it became too long and too complicated that I have a spread sheet now of the stories (esp WIP) because I had started reading things over and over, granted they were good enough to re-read.

So by the end of the year I had read ... wait for it... close to 2500 stories actually 2484 stories (when my laptop crashed I lost 415 titles that I read and I'm still looking for). So yeah addicted isn't a question anymore. LOL, I have not written a story yet, I have something that I've been outlining but I have a few other ideas but not written anything yet. Still, like I said I'm amazed at the talent that is out there and enjoying every bit of it.

Author's Response: oh, the experience of fan-fiction quickly came upon you. yeah...I know how that can be for someone first stepping in to fandom, well...welcome and good tidings on keeping your head on straight. in the world did you create this "log" for reading fan-fic...sheesh, I wish I was that organized.'s so tough to resist the urging of a good story with great characters, so I have gotten into WIPs quite often, and I never thought to actually keep track of them. I don't read so much fic anymore, not since picking up my pen and writing for SPN -- I also write for another fandom, a smaller one. But it was the first one that spurned me on to writing slash -- m/m pairings fan-fics, then cracking open my old notebooks of Original Fiction that I want to self-publish very soon. God, I can't even imagine what my reading numbers were like, because...well, I read really fast. Not a speed reader but close. Well, every avid reader I know is probably a hidden writer bursting to fly free. I encourage you to do a "little" something for each idea when you have spare never know when the creative bug's gonna bite you...and a truly great story might pour forth. Oh, true sympathy to you on your hard drive crashing. I had that experience early last year...and I'm still not over the things I many of my cover art pieces...artwork pieces I managed to save to Photobucket, but...ugh, my biggest regret was all the music files I lost...stuff I bought/downloaded off Amazon, but can't re-download though I bought it once...such BS!...much love...:O)

Reviewer: Cappy712 Signed [Report This]
Date: 01/30/2012 - 04:12 pm Title: Chapter One

Well, I'm hoping that I get the updates because if you write more on this I so want to read it.

Thank you for letting me know. I'm glad that I stumbled on to this, fan fiction has become an addiction... LOL but I have enjoyed reading so many stories. I'm amazed at how many wonderful writers there are out there, granted the writers have great actors to utilize... both for the J2 and SPN so I'm enjoying the stories. Hope to read more when you post.

Author's Response: hehehe...awww, you're too sweet. I will indeed hopefully write more on this one as soon as I can. oh, while lurking to read can become quite the addiction, but thank you for being brave enough to comment, usually people don't...just keep reading. And once you start writing them...oh, god...can't stop. I've got too many awesome plots roaming in my head. There are A LOT of really good and great writers in SPN fandom, it's what turned me onto the show...mostly because I broke through with reading Sam/Dean & J2 fics back in 2006/2007...much love...:O)

Reviewer: Cappy712 Signed [Report This]
Date: 01/23/2012 - 12:08 am Title: Chapter Four

Oh man the end, the end, I thought this was going to go on more.

Loved this, were you going to make this into a verse?

Glad I stumbled upon it and thank you for sharing.

Author's Response: awww...Cappy712, I feel so bad that I couldn't have gone on for more for you. Yes, it is certainly "in" me to write more for Jared & Jensen in this world and I am planning a 'Verse of sorts for shy!Jensen to learn about his own sexuality, well, with Jared being right there for the I'm am so glad you stumbled upon this and actually read 'thank you'...much love...:O)

Reviewer: vw_girl Anonymous starstarstarstarstar [Report This]
Date: 01/03/2012 - 10:35 am Title: Chapter Four


Author's Response: aww...thanks...there will be more to tell, of course...further exploring Jensen's awakening sexuality...but no idea when I'll start writing it... much love...:O)

Reviewer: roswellfan Signed [Report This]
Date: 11/05/2011 - 01:46 am Title: Chapter Four

I really enjoyed this. It was such a departure from the prompt in a way but in a really good way that I wish I could explain to you. I could easily see this becoming a 'verse and being expanded, but for what it was it is lovely. Thanks for sharing this.

Author's Response: awww, so glad to hear you enjoyed the read. It's why I write. It was an interesting prompt to tackle, and I know how I am when I try to interpret because it always comes out of me in some fantastical way that no one imagined possible...and it turns out to be a long-ass read. It IS becoming a 'Verse, where future fics will explore Jensen exploration sexually and on how he starts to become intimate with Jared and with Jared's help. I think you're so right...this can be a fine stand-alone on its own. Thank you for leaving me some great words...much love...:O)

Reviewer: sandymg Signed starstarstarhalf-star [Report This]
Date: 10/05/2011 - 08:53 pm Title: Chapter Four

Really liked this. I am a sucker for Cinderella tales and this was just classic. Nicely done.

Author's Response: awww...thanks. so happy you liked it. I loved writing it. I love that you think it's a "classic" tale --- kind of humbles me... much love...:O)

Reviewer: daibhi Signed starstarstarstarstar [Report This]
Date: 09/28/2011 - 01:58 pm Title: Chapter Four


Author's Response: awwww...thanks, sweetie... much love...:O)

Reviewer: LucKy Signed starstarstarstarstar [Report This]
Date: 09/28/2011 - 10:05 am Title: Chapter Four

Wonderful update!!! Yay for Jared standing up to Ella. Now Jensen needs to do that. When he's ready of course. I love that since meeting Jared, Jensen seems to be doing more regular things, like going out with co-workers, etc. I can't wait to read more!!!!!

Author's Response: glad it works for you. yeah, I thought that was a nice touch just giving Ella her comeuppance at that moment---it's a mere pebble in the ocean, but it's a start to let her know Jared will be here and she can't chase him away. I, too, love that Jared is getting Jensen to "live" a little more. hehehe, this fic is done, but I do have more stories planned that will explore Jensen's sexual awakening and also, show us how much more he'll be involved with Jared... much love...:O)

Reviewer: pristy Signed starstarstarstarhalf-star [Report This]
Date: 09/27/2011 - 08:09 pm Title: Chapter Three

creepy ella! i hope jared takes her on, but i think jensen will gather strength

Author's Response: awww...I'm quite tickled Ella's "creepiness" comes across so well. it really does make Jensen's reasons for being the way he is rather profound. Oh, yeah...there IS going to be a nice confrontation between Jared and Ella...and, yes, Jensen will be much stronger because of what Jared does and that he's now in Jensen's life... much love...:O)

Reviewer: daibhi Signed starstarstarstarstar [Report This]
Date: 09/27/2011 - 04:26 pm Title: Chapter Three

Love the story and commisserate completely with they way you've written Jen. I was a 20yr old virgin, now I'm 30 yrs into the same relationship I started with someone very special.

Author's Response: oh, yeah...I was painfully shy nearly all of my childhood [ 'til about high school ] and yeah, was also someone who held onto my virginity until my 20s. I've been able to use some of my own experiences to make Jensen "come to life". so glad it works for you too... much love...:O)

Reviewer: LucKy Signed starstarstarstarstar [Report This]
Date: 09/27/2011 - 10:24 am Title: Chapter Three

Great update!!! I love their date. It was perfect. Ella's gettitng creepier by the minute. I hope she can be stopped and soon. I can't wait to read more!!!!!

Author's Response: hehehe...thanks. glad you loved it. yeah, Ella has to get creepier in order for her "fall of power" to be rather...satisfying. So, yes...she will be stopped. more is on the way... much love...:O)

Reviewer: oldbatj Anonymous starstarstarstarstar [Report This]
Date: 09/25/2011 - 09:29 pm Title: Chapter Two

Well done! Love how helpful and insightful Chad was. Hoping Jensen finds your Jared to be his path to feeling whole and happy....and brave enough to leave that crazy bitch stepmother in his cloud of dust as he escapes.

Author's Response: thanks so much!...yeah, I love writing a "different" Chad than some people portray him as. Oh, yeah...things will work out for J2 in the end. Jensen is well on his way to leaving his crazy bitch of a me... much love...:O)

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